#PlotTwist

First let me say THANK YOU to everyone who has contributed to our GoFundMe account thus far! We're incredibly blessed to know such amazing people and we couldn't do this with out you all. Now on to the fun stuff...

If you want to make God laugh, tell Him your plans...


   Just when we thought we had this all figured out. Things were starting to make sense, we could plan, move forward, put our worries to rest and our minds at ease... I should've known this was coming. Nothing in my life is easy or ever goes as planned. There's always something lurking in the shadows behind the scenes waiting to stir the pot. I knew to expect this because I prayed for it but I didn't think it was coming this soon, if at all...

   For the sake of protecting identities, let me introduce the characters to this story as 'Fred', 'Wilma' & 'Pebbles' (creative, yea?) Zach's friend is Fred and Fred's wife is Wilma. Friday morning Zach and I received an interesting phone call from Fred explaining that Wilma has a younger sister named Pebbles and that Pebbles is in a situation. Pebbles is a young girl who happens to be pregnant and due to give birth in the next few months and because Fred and Wilma know our struggle, they've been chatting with Pebbles about potentially adopting her JellyBean to us. saaaayyyy whhhaaattt!?! Yup. #PlotTwist 

   To go from having no options or answers to too many options is a grand problem to have. I am by no means getting my hopes up that this will turn into a dream scenario but I am doing a lazy cabbage patch as a small victory dance in the back of my mind for the miracle this is. Even if it all plays out to our favor but somehow the adoption should fall through, just knowing that every tear and prayer was not wasted or forsaken but heard and validated is enough peace of mind for me. And I will keep on believing that we serve an amazing, gracious, and loving God who hears our thoughts and prayers.


   Yesterday night. as elated as we were to meet with Pebbles, talk it all out and see where it goes, we cannot abandon our initial mission. The IVF must go on!  Surely there's been a #plottwist but we can't put all our eggs in one basket (or cryo container.) We'll keep planning and playing both scenarios out until either we have 1 baby this Winter via adoption, 1 baby next Fall via IVF (unless it's twins!), both (all 3?!) on the way 7 months (+ or - 1 month) apart or God help my heart if we're still an empty nest through all attempts.

   I have to be optimistic. I have to believe that things are falling into place and now is the best and only time this could happen. I can't let the bricks of disappointment, hurt and sadness that have been building a wall around my heart keep me from feeling the joy and excitement this new adventure brings. I have to be grateful for these opportunities, this sense of wonder, awe and all the possibilities that lay before us. It's time to start thinking of all the joy and beauty that will come into our lives when things go right. All will be right. 


More news coming soon.
God Bless! 
xoxo,
Kearsten.

   

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